The first thing to overcome in my is the feeling of resistance and by those so I need to inspire my visions to speak louder than my fears I’m not close to where I want to be in life I need to aim. For more

Self sabotaging tells me that there is a problem which stills sits unresolved in me that needs me to pay attention to deeply.

I’ll start by writing a letter to my younger self from the perspective of my future self not from the place of my present self.

Dear Daniel,

Being you has to be the strongest thing ever in life, while growing up I couldn’t remember one day I celebrated my birthday it was just like all normal days to me

I remember vividly the first birthday I planned for my

Younger sister Ada I was based on me and chima savings then my elder brother sidelined us and shared it all out without thinking about us, I know that day my inner child was hurt I felt pained or was it when he always choose outsider’s over us, even till this day it’s still an habit. Love is one thing that is far from my family both extended and immediate we have never as a family come together to do one thing in love it hurts to an extent not to feel love or a definition of what it is to be loved and accepted I carried this perception into senior secondary school basically when I entered Mena college I found it hard to belong, I was treated as an outcast till the extent that I went as far as framing to be someone else to has a decent conversation with Ayobami the first girl I fell in love with who never in question loved me back. 🥹🥹🥹 funny as it sounds I sacrificed my time for her and still I wasn’t enough that phase faded, see Daniel I know that now the best love you can ever give Is the one you give to yourself and allow yourself to feel. It doesn’t hurt to be real with yourself and loving yourself is self care . I feel like writing more but I can’t get myself to fit the experience entirely I’ll keep writing to you more and more Daniel

I love you ❤️ Daniel so much because you are you